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It has been more than 3 months Mak left us. I miss you dearly Mak..

Sometimes I just forgot that you are no longer with us, just like Nejad who asked us to call you when he saw the picture of your pusara.

Ya Allah, jadikanlah pusara bondaku dan ayahandaku sebagai taman-taman syurgaMu. Limpahilah rahmat & kasih sayangMu kepada mereka. Amin.........

Karipap untuk Nejad

Karipap berinti keledek & sardin khas untuk Nejad yang jauh dimata.

Makteh goreng banyak tadi, tapi pakteh & kak Aliya dah habiskan. Nasib baik makteh sempat ambik gambar masa tinggal satu lagi ..

Pakteh kata karipap ni boleh bagi 5 bintang. Cucur badak makteh pun 5 bintang. Bolehlah makteh intai-intai peluang berniaga kuih kat sini, maklumlah, allowance pakteh dah kena potong ni!!!!

Selamat menjamu selera Nejad

Jangan underestimate

kalau macam ni oklah

Semalam pergi pejabat imegresen untuk ambil darah untuk HIV test. Kat Sudan, sebelum dapat visa untuk tinggal disini, kena buat HIV test. Berdebar jugaklah bab-bab ambik darah ni.

Bukan apa, teringat sebelum datang Sudan buat medical check up kat private hospital kat Malaysia, the lab technician couldn't find the vein, almaklumlah, badanku yang terlebih sihat. Terpaksalah dia refer kat doktor untuk ambik darah. Jumpa doktor, oklah dia jumpa salur darah & dapat ambik darah, tapi.......tempat dia cucuk tu lebam seminggu, sampaikan terfikir agaknya aku ni diabetic ke???. Lepas tu pulak ambik immunisation- 6 injections... aduhai.... yang satu injection tu dah lah sakit lepas tu lebam seminggu jugak.

Anyway, I had this 'invisible' vein problem everytime I did my annual executive screening, so I really thought that I was going to have the same problem at this immigration department.

Tapi Alhamdulillah, lab technician kat imegresen Sudan tu betul-betul cekap, senang je dia cari vein & ambil darah & tak lebam pun tempat cucuk tu... Hubby kata, tulah, lain kali jangan underestimate orang..walaupun tempat ambik darah tu taklah secanggih kat private hospital kat Malaysia, tapi orangnya cekap, perempuan pulak tu!!

Yang pastinya, akan lebih banyak pengalaman yang akan dilalui yang akan mengubah persepsiku kepada tempat ini....

Yang tak bestnya visa kena review tiap-tiap tahun, so tiap2 tahun lah kena ambik darah................

New chapter of my life

Selamat bersemadi ibuku tercinta & Marhaban.............Khartoum.

Though it was not a good beginning, after three weeks being here, I am now ready to move forward.

Leaving Malaysia, just 10 days after my loving & wonderful mother 'physically' left us, was really not a good start for me. Though the 7 hrs Emirates business class flight to Dubai & then 4 hrs to Khartoum were undeniably comfortable, it couldn't comfort my feelings. The transit stay at the comfortable LeMeridian Dubai also didn't manage to cheer me up. The short visits to Burj Al Arab, Khalifah Tower, the Mall which houses the ski facilities in the hot weather were done just for the sake of it...These are the places which I have always dreamed to bring Mak & Ajul to visit especially after knowing that my husband would be posted to Sudan; eventhough Mak always said that 'jauh lah Mak nak pergi, nanti kalau apa-apa hal susah kau orang nanti, mak bukannya sihat sangat'. But I guess, I was always in self denial......believing that Mak would always be healthy for me to bring her around the world if possible. But for Mak, she always thought of the time for her to meet Allah swt and she wanted it to be in the best of condition.

Mak, eventhough my dream to bring you for a visit here will never come true, your china silk baju kurung which I bought for 2009 Aidil Fitri is hanging in my wardrobe here in Sudan.

Mak, we will never get enough of you, even if you live another 100 years. Thank you Allah.........for giving me the chance to spend the happiest last few days of Mak's life together with her. Mak, your abrupt demise has created a big hole of emptiness in my life. I will miss 'doa mustajab seorang ibu' and this has taken my spirit away... because you have always been my driving force..

Mak, pemergianmu dengan sebuah senyuman amat mendamaikan hatiku....walaupun aku teramat sedih degan pemergianmu.

Ya Allah, ampunilah dosa ibuku, kasihanilah dia sebagaimana dia mengasihaniku semasa aku kecil. Tempatkanlah rohnya bersama-sama roh mereka yang beriman. Rahmatilah dirinya atas kesungguhannya mencari keredhaanMu semasa hidupnya dulu. Kurniakanlah syurgaMu padanya..............Ya Allah , sesungguhnya, Engkaulah Tuhan yang Maha Pengasih & Penyayang, kabulkanlah doa dan harapanku untuk ibuku tercinta.....

Tahniah

Tahniah buat Noyah, walaupun tak pergi sekolah boleh dapat 7A 2B untuk SPM 2009. Makteh rasa kalau Noyah pergi sekolah, mungkin Noyah dapat 9A.

Lepas ni jangan pulak nak ambik degree without going to college!!!!!

Alhamdulillah.

Salam pembukaan

Alhamdulillah............langkah pertama telah bermula, mudah-mudahan ianya tidak akan berhenti di sini.............................