New chapter of my life

Selamat bersemadi ibuku tercinta & Marhaban.............Khartoum.

Though it was not a good beginning, after three weeks being here, I am now ready to move forward.

Leaving Malaysia, just 10 days after my loving & wonderful mother 'physically' left us, was really not a good start for me. Though the 7 hrs Emirates business class flight to Dubai & then 4 hrs to Khartoum were undeniably comfortable, it couldn't comfort my feelings. The transit stay at the comfortable LeMeridian Dubai also didn't manage to cheer me up. The short visits to Burj Al Arab, Khalifah Tower, the Mall which houses the ski facilities in the hot weather were done just for the sake of it...These are the places which I have always dreamed to bring Mak & Ajul to visit especially after knowing that my husband would be posted to Sudan; eventhough Mak always said that 'jauh lah Mak nak pergi, nanti kalau apa-apa hal susah kau orang nanti, mak bukannya sihat sangat'. But I guess, I was always in self denial......believing that Mak would always be healthy for me to bring her around the world if possible. But for Mak, she always thought of the time for her to meet Allah swt and she wanted it to be in the best of condition.

Mak, eventhough my dream to bring you for a visit here will never come true, your china silk baju kurung which I bought for 2009 Aidil Fitri is hanging in my wardrobe here in Sudan.

Mak, we will never get enough of you, even if you live another 100 years. Thank you Allah.........for giving me the chance to spend the happiest last few days of Mak's life together with her. Mak, your abrupt demise has created a big hole of emptiness in my life. I will miss 'doa mustajab seorang ibu' and this has taken my spirit away... because you have always been my driving force..

Mak, pemergianmu dengan sebuah senyuman amat mendamaikan hatiku....walaupun aku teramat sedih degan pemergianmu.

Ya Allah, ampunilah dosa ibuku, kasihanilah dia sebagaimana dia mengasihaniku semasa aku kecil. Tempatkanlah rohnya bersama-sama roh mereka yang beriman. Rahmatilah dirinya atas kesungguhannya mencari keredhaanMu semasa hidupnya dulu. Kurniakanlah syurgaMu padanya..............Ya Allah , sesungguhnya, Engkaulah Tuhan yang Maha Pengasih & Penyayang, kabulkanlah doa dan harapanku untuk ibuku tercinta.....